The roller coster of life

Isn’t it amazing how one day you can be up in the stars and the next you are back in the gutter. How one night can be so special and so amazing that it can make forget about everything. At that moment your living life and it feels like everything you have experienced is in the past. Then when that night is over you are back to reality. That energy that you hade is gone. And the excitement of life and what comes next and doing things is gone. It’s like you get a taste of joy but then your mind brings you back into your depressed reality were it is hard to function or find the joy in anything. I don’t want to live that way. I want everyday to be like that. I want to be excited for what comes next and get that high everyday because you only live once and I want to make the most of it. Not be stuck in my world of sadness and boredom